I almost didn't write this one.
Not because I didn't have anything to say. I always have something to say. I have a whole blog full of something to say. That's kind of the thing I want to talk about.
I was sitting here getting ready to write a post and I had this honest moment. Does anyone actually read these? I don't have a massive audience. Some people stumble onto this page. A few listen to a song. Maybe one or two click into the blog. And I have been writing these posts like there is a crowd out there leaning in.
Is a blog self-indulgent? Genuinely asking. I have this assumption in my head that people want to know the person behind the songs. But I don't actually know if that's true. That might just be a story I tell myself because I like writing.
They say write like you already have a big audience. I've tried that. It makes everything feel a little performed to me. Like I'm setting up a stage for a room I'm not sure is there.
So here's where I landed. Maybe it doesn't matter. Maybe some person finds this page at a random moment and something here is exactly what they needed. Maybe it's just for me and putting it somewhere public makes it feel like it counts. Both of those are fine.
The songs are real either way. That part I'm sure about.